I'd rather have a bottle in front of me.....

Lately I've been doing a lot of changing. Less thinking, more doing. It's a big change for me. Literally- one day last week I woke up and decided I was going to be happy. So far its working.

I'm also realizing a lot of things... things both sad and liberating. If I want to have a life I have to let go of the life I dont have. What do I mean by that? Honesty. Letting go of past loves. Making friends out of them if you can. Letting go of old attachments, bad habits and old dreams. Living the life that I have now. Not necessarily living for right now.... but, accepting and enjoying the present so that I can make a better future for myself.

One of the reasons I like this blog is because only one person knows where it is- Leah... and I doubt she remembers. haha.

Still, I wont become too secure in the privacy of this space. After all, its on the internet.

Just thinking. I'm happy. I'm not stressed. I'm not attached to anything or anyONE.. although I have been enjoying someones company lately. I'm happy. It's good.


...than a frontal lobotomy.